OMG!!! I finally found the song I been searching!!! Here its is.

Charlie Landsborough - Me and the elephant Lyrics
Album: Once In A While

remember the day we had nothing to do
So we went down to the city zoo
Just to kill an hour or two
Out in the good sunshine

We had so much fun
We were glad that we came
Feed all the animals
And gave each a name
Didn't even mind when it started to rain
We had a real good time

Now that its over and your far away
I miss you more with each passin day
And all my friends sympathize and say
You'll for get in time
Yes you will
Give yourself a little time

But it's already been over a year
Just in case you interested
You might like to hear
How everyone is doing down at the city zoo with out you
Well the monkey forgot you
The hippo forgot you
And so did the kangaroo
But me and the elephant
We still remember you
Me and the elephant will never forget you

Well I called down an old friend
Trusted and true
Sought his advice as to what I should do
He said everything that reminds me of you
Would all have to go
So I burned all of your pictures
Except two or three
The one by my bed
And the one on my TV
And the one that I always carry with me everywhere I go

And today was so nice
And since I was in town
I thought I'd take the opportunity to go down
And see how everyone is down at the city zoo
And what's new
Well the rhino forgot you
The zebra forgot you
The polar bear and the tiger too
But me and the elephant we still remember you
Me and the elephant will never forget you

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Was so happy yesterday night as I met Tash and Lea. Help me ease my lonliness! I love you two. I hope even during university, we still can hang together.

Today, my crazy feeling is no longer bothering me. Thank goodness as it was such a killer.

Operation clean room here I come!!!!

Yes she finaally cleaning her pig sty

Ok, I really getting so damn confused with my life. Its like this is out, thats is out. NOt realistic, not going to earn, not safe bla bla. Honestly, must I stick to wanting business? Accounting? Whats wrong following my passion? Argh this word is like we really can't live our dreams!

Anyway just lost the recent job as not reaching her target to get the actress higher and faster? You know what? The job was really weird and well demanding to me so yeah was sad I got sacked as never did before and everyone so far love my job though its only 2 where NTUC I work the longest and even ask me back and stay.I am happy to be out of the job cause my eyes were going screwed and the lacking of sleep was killer. Damian and Tash were nagging me to sleep early haha.Still got my sister's job so yeah.

Now Bizlink offered another in library. As much as I want to take the offer, its quite tough as its only like 20 a day and in town. So its like in town I spend half my pay on transport I Think. I don't know man. I really think I want it but not like forever! Just for experience of working in the library. But if it was like Bedok and 20 maybe I would say yes la in also for now.

Well, I just emailed to enquire a pastry and baking art diploma and scholorship by WSQ and some other company. I really found it of my interest! Ok the only thing is baking means everyday mainly and thats what is abit shit but well I can't always have everything perfect and I think if you love it, you be ok with it. Actually, I have this thing on returning to NTUC man but I don't know how as if cashier, can't hear and RA I got no guts to climb those ladder to put stocks in big boxes up on shelfs and too risky carrying heavy things so much now with my condition. I hate the restriction like my problem. You know what? Like a story I read if you think you can, do it not what doctors say as they are not you. But sometimes doctors can be right and later we do something against the doctor and it goes wrong, we go damn should have listen to the doctor. Argh so irritating.

I honestly don't know if I want to do accountancy. I mean accounts man. I like find it damn stress though I did well in secondary school.

I like psychology too. I now have this dream counselling for the deaf but there no answer like how high is that dream possible. Just the word, why not, you can try but is it even possible?! I think to me its hard as think about it, the only place you can work is mainly association for the deaf as besides there, no one may know that there such help around.

Then there a want to do social work, but how strong am I and how? So many damn obstacles ok. I wish I could like speak with GOD in heaven and have tea to talk it over. Haha. I know pray and he talks but its not easy hearing him. I want to talk like how we talk to friends!Like his here and can answer me on the spot. Oh well. I hope I figure my life and Ms chew tells me the admin job still open for now. Pay good too. Ok going now ciao

This few weeks have been rather fun! Been really spending quality time with Damian. Its really good. I know I kind of neglected the group but lately could not see the point being there if I was not meaning it. Well, also I think I spend the time great when I am not there. Damian and I seem so in love like before. Its sweet.

Today was super nice. We decided to go Parkway since he end by the time meeting starts. We had dinner at mos den off to the arcade. PLayed basketball till we got 50 plus points! We were so excited and played again but were so tired we did worst. Drove race car and he won AGAIN and we did some match making test. Haha. First tine we actually did such thing but it was fun and the readings quite true. Haha. We were so tired and headed home. YOu know, I think we rather arcade then the club. Childish but fun. I love it and it also make us work together alot. I think clubbing is really not us though I went. Did not find it a big deal thing. I rather sleep at that time. Haha.

Tomorrow after his work is off to expo and then church. Hopefully we can meet Tash for mass and maybe dinner. Its time for some catching up. I think its been a month since we hang.

ok I wanna sleep now. nite

This song for me does not only mean our partner but I think those close to you. Well its how I feel and it came to my head so just post it.

Behind These Hazel Eyes lyrics

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

How my day went today especially? Not that good. I feel so off and even when I have a good day when it ends, the darkness glooms over me again. When will I feel purely happy and carefree? When will my days stay a constant sunshine? I don't know. Get me out of this for good please.

One thing I have in my mind now. True friends, how true are they and how true when you are told you mean alot in their life? Lover, How much do you love someone and why can't we be honest or get how the other feels deep down inside? How do you know his the one you be with till the end.

Life is just so damn uncertain.

Went clubbing on Sunday with Fran, Wes and Roy( wes friend) at Zirca hoping to meeting the hunks in Thunder from down under as there wa a teaser and free entry. Much dissappointment as it was nothing. Just take out shirt and a stunt. Well my first time going to club. Finally. Not that I party freak la but quite fun in dancing like idiot and no one cares. What I feared was those seductive dancing, drinking and flirting. Thank goodness nothing and well I was mainly just dancing without any grinding or being close. Boring you may say but nice and better as I think those dirty dance only for my guy and doing with others seem so weird and low down. As Damian say don;t cheapen yourself. It was great experience and you know what was so fun? Watching gays. Hardcore gays! Ok I am weird but it was cool. Haha I never got to see how open or close up but in the club was like so open. Guys kissing and all. Was weird cause its like how BGR is like. Freaky. Oh I learn too that gays are really rather hunky haha. Quite hot and they mostly took off their shirts to show it off. Haha. We club till like 2.30am. Well, I wish I had Damian though know he hates it. He can see the crazy me like he saw me yesterday showing him how I was dancing. He say I was mad cause jumping around haha.

I must say its something that would not be like regular for sure as its not really good especially due to the timing but once in awhile I think letting your hair down is ok right?

Haha next up I want to see lesbians! Haha sounds stupid. But I just interested. I know I saw loads in my secondary school and nearly was one but I want to see like in public and like gays. Ok I am so insane having initerest with homo or bi. Hey maybe hitch a girl too! joking. Well Chris say he want to see so maybe I just found a partner who iis safe i hope to be with as I know Damian abit scared things go wrong. My brother sure will take care of me like Wesley who is my other bro. Haha. \

Ok got do my sister's work now. Tata

kiara and kyrene with our niu year banner

I really got try updating my blog like how some people do. They can really update like evry week. I know when I was in secondary school sometimes it could be every day. God I sounding rather old eh? Haha. Well, Chinese new year was quite good for me this year as I actually kind of went visiting like to Tash's house, Damian's and Godma Julia. Going see Damian's grandpa and the whole family this Sunday partly to celebrate Zare's birthday. Going be hell of a rush morning and early afternoon. Morning I got to cook the ondeh ondeh which are I think first class man. Receipe is thanks to Mrs Tan who gave me some recipe book from Geylang Methodist school. So far only thing I tried is ondeh ondeh. Haha. So far a couple not my type as quite chinese. Ok I know I am chinese but but some receipe I got or you know i think we asians sometimes eat weird stuff. Hehe. I want a book of Peranakan Kueh! Its time I start learning them as I am actually a peranakan. I think quite pure. My dad is pure. I think my mum is quite too as her great grandma was pure if I am correct. I think their kueh and desserts are yummy and I wanna learn more. Cooking is not much cause their cooking quite killer after seeing little nonya and how Damian's grandma cook. As Damian say, do so much work then eat all up within an hour. I may cook if there a big group bu just for me or Damian too is so waste time. Haha. I think I still love baking and making kueh. Baking stuff can keep so better. Haha. Anyway Have kindda decorated the house for both CNY and christmas. I must say its quite fun! get to do some art other then year end in church whats more over there I acn't like do what I want or like most production do most of the fun. Damian complain about painting our cow banner cause tired. Well, my dear thumper is not really that art crazy. I love painting all just hate doing alone as usual but I realised it reall makes you happy! Feels like you are a kid again.

Anyway I think I need a job as My mum the only one working and only 800 she brought home last year. Not enough for expenses. I sort my path out but I just started this new blog called yummilicious. Its about our baking journey (in Damian and I). Its knid of a shop too in the sense if people want or like can ask to order. Its not like a big scale shop just did this for fun. I mean cause we love to bake and cook especially me. Its not a like like major shop. Do out of past time i guess. Like help friends or relatives make cookies or what.

Argh tryin to talk to Damian on facebook as his MSN is at the study where his uncle is. His com screw up so now no msn in his room. Ok I don't know nuts with facebook and I can't believe Damian is doing quite well moving around. Sometimes I feel all this damn waste time now. GOD I sounding so old!!!!! Finally I talking to Damian haha but we sound like friends no funny talk. oh well. I shall go off now hugs.

ok I am currently in TP Engine computer lab with Damian. Using his password to gain access for this computer. Hos having a meeting with his friend, Benjamin Who Damian say is a tracker. Nice. haha He got six pack apparently so haha.

Anyway, today there is choir practice for pegeanty practice at church but before that having dinner with the gang! Cook ing at my house. Tash helping me since she want to cook. Haha. I miss my two girlfriends though I met Tash on Thursday last week. She helped me colour my drawings and thank god as I was messing it as I suck with pastel!!! Later I treated her to Thai Express for saving me and had coffee where we met Josh. Good boy he was studying quite hard.

Well, it was only 8pm and Tash was like impatient that she told the starbuck guy to pack her coffee!!! I told her its only 8 and she went haha so early? You see, she was dying to watch the 9 pm show little nonya. She was dying for it to start I tell you. Anyway we reached home to watch the show and Tash was digging my bed for all my soft toys. Prticularly care bears that i have 4! Damian just told me on Monday he going get another for me. Haha my bed is filled with so many toys but its ok.

Saw a 100 bucks bear in Tampines too. Its huge but its ok I don't think I want as by then I think I be on the floor as the bed is covered with toys. I think io shall post a picture of my bed with all the toys. Tash complin too that all my toys are falling off my bed and to the back. haha.

Well Damian just saw I wrote about Benjamin and he just smack me and told him I think. *Blush* But his figure really not bad. Face abit fierce la haha but cool. hehe ok I got to go now before Damian checks what I write. love